I'm asking for you guys to pray for me. Going back to school yesterday reminded me of how I'm losing friends, volantarily, due to my growing relationship with Christ. Due to this, though, I'm feeling lonely and depressed. It's sad having to lose some of my friends, but I need a positive influence, and they just aren't doing it. I hate seeing people in such need, too. They're so lost, and misdirected/guided. Please pray that God leads me to people that can help keep me standing straight, people to uplift me, not push me further when I've fallen. I'm confused, but God's sorting me out. Please pray for me.

Also, my heart is opening up. In the past I had built a shell around my heart to dull my emotions, but now that's pretty much gone, thanks to pain inflicted on it. Please pray for God to guide me through this emotional turmoil right now, most of my feelings are love, heartache, love, heartbreak, longing, love, sadness, and love. The love is mixed with a bunch of heart-wrenching emotions and I'm not sure quite what to do but pray, get into the Word, and wait it out.

This was all probably confusing to read, but please, those who understand, pray for me, please.

Seth

I'll be praying for you...I know what its like to give up friends {good friends} because you want a relationship with Christ. I'm glad you are taking the hard path...I'll be praying.

i will pray for you. stay strong.

i'm prayen too. hope everything get's better.

Thanks guys, I really appreciate it

understand?? haha, i kinda posted somethin about almost the same thing in another section...ya, ive been there & it hurts. but keep chasing God w/ the same fervor!! b/c as u continue to get even closer to Him, He will become closer than you imagine & you will soon realize how much better off u are w/o ur freinds. i know u already know this but u will begin to feel it like never b4. & wen u see ur old freinds or some1 who is still trying to be freinds w/ u & doesnt realize the change, u will realize that they will remind u of ur old self & u may miss the companionship, but u wont miss being w/ them. & i find that wen im walking down the halls i can feel God walking w/ me stronger every day & wen i would be talking to my old freinds...Hes talking to me! & we have so much better conversations.... not to mention school will start looking different, ur motives for things will change. like, wen ur talking to ppl who u are sitting next to b/c u dont have any1 else, u will start thinking "how can i minister to this person? how can i show them Jesus?" u will find urself w/ ppl u wouldnt be casught dead w/ b4(for instance, i ended up sitting w/ the pot heads @ lunch..i used to be afraid of them :P ) & u will minister to them w/o even realizing it! they will look @ ur face & realize that ur different & ask y. they will want to spend more time w/ u b/c they like being around u...y?...Jesus, my freind, they want Jesus..& u have been ordained to give it to them.

uve got an awsome yr ahead of ya pal..oo ya, sometimes hard...but stinkin awsome. ;D

><sarah><

ps. oo ya & ill def be praying for ya

Hey, thanks for the encouragement :)

Hey Seth

I will stand in the gap for you that God will help you with this... and even if it looks like it just remember you are not alone...I remember a story in the bible when Elijah thought he was the only prophet standing for God but God told him that their were 7000 others that he didnt know about.

Just let your light shine and God will work out the rest and dont forget that you have friends here...feel free to PM me if you ever just need to talk.

Blessings

John

Thanks guys, I love you all and thank you for your prayers, they're a huge help, thanks :)

i know how you feel (emotion-wise) i think its especially hard for us guys because we are trained by societ to keep everything bottled up inside. 16 yrs of that isn't healthy, and ive just started the healing process. i regularly write to my "personal confidant," and occasionally we have lunch, or just chat. she is a lot like me and really understands because she's been there. i have been fortunate enough to earn her trust, as she now confides in me. so, my advice to you is this: find someone who you can trust and can open up to. it takes time, but it will help.. i think over the past moth we've written 15-20 letters total, back and forth, as well as getting together to chat. she's become my pseudo-sister, and for that i am eternally grateful. dont keep it bottled up, or you'll explode like a seagull who just ate alka-seltzer plus. *KABOOM!!!* ;D 8)
you're in my prayers,
mark

Thanks, man. I really needed to hear that. I've started doing it again, and I really don't want to do that. I've got to write something tonight, feel what I'm going through, and live. Thanks man, I appreciate it. All praise to God!!

Seth