Brandon's dead. He slit his wrists, i was in the same room. he did it in front of me. i can still smell the blood, when i look at my hands sometimes i can see them covered with his blood. where was God when all of that happened? HUH?? what's the Bible say about that? what happens now!?

*for those of u who didn't read my last post...he was my boyfriend...um...and other things were happening...*

i'm sorry. i feel like such a winer...i just don't know what to do...maybe i should follow brandon's example. he took the easy way...the coward.

*blinks* I think I missed something


btw, total snaps for the Lain pic. I love that show.

CJ

i'm sorry. i feel like such a winer...i just don't know what to do...maybe i should follow brandon's example. he took the easy way...the coward.


ok, first, you are not a winer. a winer goes on & on about his/her troubles & won't listen to anybody. i know, my sister is one. :P you are not wining, don't worry about that.

secondly, suicide is the easy way out. yeah, that might sound good, but the "easy way out" isn't so easy & it's not exactly an out. it takes guts to kill yourself. just like it takes guts to go on living. take that resolve & courage you would use toward suicide & use it towards life.

i feel for you. i've never had to watch anyone die in front of me, but i have had people die around me. it's not easy. in fact, it's one of the hardest parts about life. but remember, God puts people in our path, situations for us to go through for a reason. it's not to see us suffer or go through pain. He LOVES beyond anything else. Love sent down in exactly what Christmas is about.

i know life seems harsh, cruel, unwieldy, unfriendly, not worth it, & everything else negative. but don't fall into the trap of negatives. life is also joyous, loving, fun, exciting, & everything else positive. next time you're feeling depressed & negative & like you can't go on, think about all the good things you'll miss. all the happiness you will never have a chance at if you kill yourself.

i will be praying. not because you posted it in the Garden & that's what you're supposed to do for people and not because you sounded so incredibly desparate for someone to care. i will be praying because you need it.

Oh, I am really sorry and sadend by your news :'(.

We all go through times of trial and difficulties. I am sorry if I seem disrespectful, but Brandon was faced with a trial and he took an "easy" way out. you too have been faced with a trial, having a boyfriend commit suicide in front of you. It is now your time to do what God wants you to, but I don't know what it is. And remember, suicide is a perminant solution to a temporary problem.
James 1:
2Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials,
3knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.
4And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
12 Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.

I would also suggest that you get a more of a professional to help. Talk to your pastor, bring this issue to a prayer group so other christians can pray with you (I know this is a place to get prayer, but hearing the honest prayers of a dedicated christian can lift even the most broken of spirits).

I will be praying for the friends and family of this young man.

Aww.. I'm sorry. If you need to talk I do have IM thingies. This summer my ex-boyfriend, I was dating him at the time, tried to kill himself in front of me :-[ but after a month in the hospital he is fine...... well as well as he can be.

hmm. i have posted before for some of you aren't familar with me or Brandon....................eh. i've been seeing a counselor for a while. but yes i do have professional help....it is ...eh..nice to get all of my thoughts out sometimes. i don't know weather to miss him or hate him. all the things that he's done to me...he robbed me of my sanity by all the things (i don't care to go into them, i posted one a month before though) well because of the madness he fed into my head, my mother decided to go all paternal on me and she "ended" our relationship. well as the rebelious teenagers we are, we kept seeing and kept doing things. well eventually i couldn't take it anymore and i broke things off with him. then last weekend AFTER we broke up my bi friend asked me to be her girlfriend. thinking that it would be easier to get over him and my growing curiousity of being with someone of the same sex, i accepted. when Brandon found out, he was enraged and hit me up pretty good. two days later he came to my house in the middle of the night, through the window, he woke me up...and we talked for about an hour. and. he did it. there was blood. so much blood. it got all over my night gown. my body. i still smell it. oh my god! why did this happen? my God, how can you be so cruel!?

Im sorry to hear this, but it wasn't God who made Brandon do that it was Brandon who did that God knew it was going to happen but he didn't make that happen, obviously Brandon was very troubled and Im sorry that you had to experience such trauma

First off, don't blame God. Blaming God is another "easy" solution that a lot of people take when they can't understand a situation. People choose to do what they do, God doesn't make those decisions for them. I know it seems unfair, like why didn't God save him? Personally, I've never come to understand that. Why does God let some things happen? I will probably never understand.
I'm not even going to pretend I understand what you're going through, b/c frankly, I don't. I know how much it ticks me off when someone pretends to understand soemthing they don't, so I won't do that to you. All I can tell you is that my heart bleeds for you, and that I will be praying.

God, I lift Linz up before you right now. She has witnessed something so horrible I can't even imagine what she feels right now. God, just put your arms around her. Let her feel comforted in Your embrace. Give her strength, give her courage. Help her to understand.
Let her feel Your love and power. Flood her with Your spirit and comfort her in her fear, in her anger, in her sadness, in whatever she may be feeling right now. Give her peace of mind, God.
God, place wise leaders before her now. Ones that will speak Your word to her. Not fools who will speak through their own understanding. Give her someone she can trust, someone who has an understanding of her situation.
Please, God, just bless her in her current situation. In the name of Jesus I pray, amen.

Linz, please trust God. Please let Him work in you. Let Him comfort you. Be strong. Remember that when you are weak God is always strong. He'll carry you through the tough times if you'll just let Him. I honestly don't know what else to tell you. Just have faith.

And please, please, don't kill yourself. Even if you feel abandoned and hopeless, remember that God loves you, and this is gonna sound really weird, but so do I. Remember that the sun is always shining behind the clouds. Or in this case, the Son is always shining even you can only see darkness. When you are blinded, God will lead you.
Don't give up on life. There is so much more to be had. There are still good things. Even though suicide seems like the easy thing to do, this life is so much shorter than eternity, so think of this: even though life is horrible, hell is so much worse. Compared to hell, this life is like taking a walk in daisies. And eternity is a LOT longer than this life.
Remember, "you're worth so much/that heaven would touch/ the face of humankind for you."

I will be praying for you. :'(

no one understands. i keep comeing to the realization that the guy that...even through he drove me insane....i still LOVED him!...he was my first real love.... is in eternity. he was an athiest. went to Hell!!! i'll never see him again. and it's all my fault! i should have told him...made him believe. it's all my fault. you're right. not god's....mine.

We all have our missed opportunities like I have had countless and I have no idea if some of them are still alive... I know you didn't get a chance with Brandon but there are soo many other people out there who can be saved also... i dont want to sound inhumane or anything

NO! you don't get it! i HAD THE OPPORTUNITY! i just never took it! i was too caught up in sex and all the other things i wanted to do.... i used to be such a good Christian girl....what happened to me? *sighs*

Well We all have opportunities... there was a statistic that if every christian took 1 of there opportunities the whole world would be saved. We all blow our chances you shouldn't be so hard on yourself... I mena Ive watched passles of opportunities go by... There is a girl right now at my church I really need to help and im too afraid to help her...

NO! you don't get it! i HAD THE OPPORTUNITY! i just never took it! i was too caught up in sex and all the other things i wanted to do.... i used to be such a good Christian girl....what happened to me? *sighs*

Woah, now you're blaming the wrong person again. It is not your fault! I repeat, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT! You did not make the choice for him. He killed himself.
You couldn't make him believe. You just can't. It's impossible. It has to be that person's decision. Even if you had witnessed to him, if he didn't want to, it wouldn't've made any difference.
Okay, you messed up. You fell away. It happens to every single Christian at some point in their walk with God. Don't you dare blame yourself. Like I said, I won't pretend to understand your position, but please don't blame yourself. You couldn't make him believe.
Everybody makes mistakes, everybody misses opportunities to witness. Don't blame yourself.

Sometimes we'll never understand why God lets stuff happen even until we die... (I know this is a small and Corny example) But my Dog died and I never understood but Its probably better for me.... I dont know its too hard to explai... sort of like Sept. 11 that shook the whole country and woke a lot of people up to God... Its more of a big picture thing

^ Exactly. There are some things we will never understand until we get to heaven. It sounds stupid and horrible to our puny understanding. But there are things our minds can't comprehend, so God just doesn't reveal those things to us, b/c we wouldn't be able to understand them even if He did.
This might make you upset or something, but it's the truth.
My brother, in his lifetime, has lost two best friends. One, b/c he was hunting and his friend's gun backfired, the other in a car accident. My brother never understood why his friends died. He never will. Not while he's still alive. He doesn't want to try and understand it.

I can't say I know how you feel, because I don't, I have never had anyone I know die, let alone see someone commit suicide in front of me. But I will be praying.

I've stayed quiet on this because simply - I don't know what to say. I cannot imagine what that is like and I won't pretend that I do.

Don't blame yourself for it. You cannot MAKE anyone do anything, people do things because they choose to. Brandon chose what he did. Not you, not God.


I'll tell you this, one thing Satan does is put thoughts in our headi n the FIRST person. He doesn't always accuse saying "It was YOUR fault" sometimes he says "Its MY fault"
Doing that he makes ppl believe that it is their own thoughts.

You say your a Christian, I have no reason to question that.
You are a child of God, you are annointed, you are righteous, a saint, you are clothed in the righteousness of God, your a powerful warrior of Christ, you are armed and armoured. You can take control of this in Christ. I'll be praying for you that you can stand in Christ even stronger and have freedom from all wrong you may be in.

I hope I've been of help.

today was terrible. i had to go back to school. everyone kept asking me quesitions. there were such nasty comments. please pray for his family. his mother came to my house and started cursing me and telling me that the death of her son was my fault. i feel so awful.

I am praying for you Linz!

pidget's said it before, twice in fact, and i'll say it again. -IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT
i can't even begin to understand what you're going through, but it isn't your fault that he died. he made the choice himself. i'll pray for you, and please, please do not beat yourself up. don't kill yourself. suicide isn't the way out.

i keep telling myself that it's not, but satan keeps talking to me, making me believe that i am the one who is to blame. thank you all for your prayers. they are greatly appreshiated. (can't spell)

well, satan's an idiot. a cunning idiot, but an idiot all the same. just keep asking God to give you strength to stand against him. If you're truly repentant, he'll forgive you and defend you. He'll never give you more than you can bear. it may seem like it, and He might test you to the limit, but he won't crush you. I'm sorry if that didn't make any sense. :-

no i understood it. my father (i don't live with him anymore) used to tell me that since i'm God's child, he'll kill me if i really screw up. if that's true i shoulda been dead a LONG time ago. wow i don't know where that came from. just thought it went good with my topic name.

*result of lack of sleep and sore eyes*

no i understood it. my father (i don't live with him anymore) used to tell me that since i'm God's child, he'll kill me if i really screw up. if that's true i shoulda been dead a LONG time ago. wow i don't know where that came from. just thought it went good with my topic name.

*result of lack of sleep and sore eyes*


I say this a lot and just about everyone thats had a conversation with me has heard it... JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

that won't happen unless you don't repent. i mean, if you aren't sorry, and you don't give a rip what god thinks of you, then he will judge you, but (and i'm sorry if i'm being repetitive) if you are sorry, then he'll take care of you. God won't kill you unless you really deserve it. i mean, we all deserve to die, but he'll forgive you if you ask, and then it's as if it never happened, in His book

yes...and i have told him that i am sorry. it's just a mental thing, i guess.

yeah... that happens. i've done bad things, apologized, but still haven't felt forgiven. i suppose that's satan's doing :-

I've stuggled with guilt and blame like that too. Keep telling yourslef it's not your fault and you are forgiven. You can get through it. I'm still praying.

You seem to be coping real well. Back to school and posting on message boards right after it happened. That's a good sign, I guess.

i found a verse and i don't know if it will help at all, i'm sorry if it doesn't. i am praying for you and if you need someone to talk to, you can email me.
He has made everything beautiful in it's time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.- ecclesiastes 3:11

no i understood it. my father (i don't live with him anymore) used to tell me that since i'm God's child, he'll kill me if i really screw up. if that's true i shoulda been dead a LONG time ago.


That is a pile of bull. God is not going to kill his children. That is but another lie from Satan.

God gave us power over the devil, if we command him to leave he has to do it. Submit yourself then to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you.

You do have the power to get through this. God has given you the strength to fight him, you just have to believe it.

i know this has nothing to do with the topic , but i just LOVE the song Savior. it always makes me feel so good inside. *sighs*

^ That's a good thing! If it makes you happy, listen to it over and over. Actually... that was what I was going to suggest... listening to some music or something that makes you feel calm and happy so you aren't dwelling on the bad things constantly. Looks like you're already doing that. :o

Me2

Don't ever take the easy way out. . .God has sooooooo much for you in store. . .You're going to be a GREAT person. . .I wanted to take that way at one time but I good friend of mine stopped me and I saw God in a different light than I had seen Him before. . .NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR LIFE!!! you're worth so much no matter who you are!! If ya ever need help talk to God. . .He's ALWAYS there for you, while some friends my puck out and leave you, if they go away it doesn't matter as long as you have God. I hope you get things worked out with yourself and God, I'm sorry about you're boyfriend, but it was his choice. . .you can make a better one. I'll be praying for you. And I hope you are able to change things to the way you want them. God Bless.

i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide


~Song by Evanescene~

Mon dieu. i love that song. it's so wonderful. the lyrics mirror the words of my heart.
*wow that was corny*

Listen to 'Tourniquet' by Soul Embraced on www.godcore.com

yea Tourniquet. that's what that song i posted is called except it's by Evanescene

I like that song too.

my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

~*For Brandon. Baby, I'm sorry I didn't help you*~

(i sang this song at his funeral)

I though of a song to post but when I hit reply I forgot :- well if I remember it I'll add it. Death can be a very hard thing to get though, I know that all to well I have lost countless people to sucide and it hurts. My friend died 4 years ago and sometimes I still cry myself to sleep when I think of him :'( . It will get easier to deal with while time goes on though.

I'm so sorry about your friend, but I'm glad to hear that you are getting along better now with God's help. have a great day.

I read this poem the other day and I just thought of you Linz. . .

You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together withing the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt/hurts you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
Ao that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!

I just thought you might need to hear that.

Wow, that poem is awesome...do you know who wrote it?

How are you making it Linz?

Yes, it is used in the book The Purpose Driven Life. Russell Kelfer is the one who wrote the poem.
I recomend the book if you have never read it before. . .it's awesome!!

Thanks yamaha, I actually have read that book, I thought the poem looked familiar...anyway, how have you been LInz? I'm still praying...

Hey gurl! How are you holding up? I'm praying for you! Um... question.... was this brandon that use to be on the ay boards?

no. no he was never on the boards.

Hey listen Linz, I dont me to come across rude but you are not the only one who is having hard times. You need to stop having a pity party for yourself. So you had the oppurtunity to preach to your man, but you didn't take the oppurtunity, dont dwell in that place. That is over, you cant fix the past. This boy killed himself, God didn't do it, God didn't even have plans for him to kill himself, that is a choice that he made on his own. And like pidget said it is the easy way out, and so is blaming God. There is nothing you can or could do aobut the situation, it is horrible and you were helpless. So help yourself and dont get down on yourself, i know it sounds impossible, but it really helps if you can just accept that you had NO control over what he did. Lastly, maybe if you would just think about the good times you two had, and all the love you shared it will help you through this. And try not to concentrate so much on your own problems, look at others in your school, i can garantee that others are hurting and need your help. you have a message, you can tell people about what you saw and help explain that they shouldn't be like that. And i hope you will never consider killing yourself esp. after having seen suicide fist person. I am so sorry for you and no i cant know what exactly you are feeling but dont be mistaken in thinking you are the only one who is suffering and going through heartache. I will pray for you and i hope that you can turn to God, he offers the ulimate comfort. I love you, my sister. In Him, Angelo

how dare you say that! you don't know me! it doesn't matter anymore anyway. i hate men. all they ever do is hurt me. i don't feel sorry for myself and i don't want anyone feeling sorry for me!

Angelo didn't mean to offend you she was just trying to give you some advice.

If you don't want people to feel sorry for you then don't tell them things like "Brandon's dead. . .I can still smell the blood. . .it was God's fault, why did he let him do it"
People are going to feel sorry for you.

I feel sorry for you because you can't realize that you didn't cause it and that it wasn't God's fault, and that you think that men are evil. Maybe if you didn't open up to them so much then you wouldn't have as much of a chance to get hurt.

A lot of people care about you on these boards and are praying for you. . .but me and Angelo just wanted to tell you the truth, without the sugarcoating. . .because you need to hear it.

You can get mad at me and tell me that I have no right to say these things because "I don't know you!" go ahead. . .it's fine with me. . .I just wanted to say my opinion and try to help you and I did that so. . .

Hey i am really sorry for the way i came across. i didn't mean to act like i knew you or what you are going through. I did get a little carried away and i am sorry. please forgive me.

Linz, I think it's time you learned some forgiveness. I know, it's easier said than done. I'm not saying it's easy, I'm saying it's necessary.

You've been through horrible stuff. I don't pretend to understand what that feels like, but I do know that the only way you can ever truelly heal those old wounds is to forgive the people who put them there. Proverbs 25:21+22 says "If your enemy is hungry, give him bread to eat; And if he is thirsty, give him water to drink; For so you will heap coals of fire on his head, And the Lord will reward you." and in Prov. 28:14 it says "Happy is the man who is always reverent, But he who hardens his heart will fall into calamity."

Bitterness will destroy you. It will tear you down and turn you into exactly the thing you hate. It's the truth. The more you hate something or someone, the more you become like them. Proverbs 29: 22 says "An angry man stirs up strife, And a furious man abounds in transgression."

There's nothing to be gained from hating men b/c the ones you've known have hurt you. You will hurt yourself, and drag yourself down. Ephesians 4:32 "And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as Christ forgave you."

Colossians 3:13 "bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do." Forgiveness isn't a request. It's a commandment. You must forgive the people who hurt you. It's hard. And you probably don't want to. If I were in your place, I know I wouldn't want to either. But it doesn't matter if we don't want to. It's a commandment, we must.

Romans 12:17-21 "Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, 'Vengeance is Mine, I will repay' says the Lord. Therefore 'If your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him drink; for in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head.' Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

Linz, I don't want to see you make the same mistakes as some people I know. They dwelled in bitterness towards a physically and emotionally abusive person, and ended up exactly like that person. I can tell you this, and I know from experience that it is true, if you dwell in your hatred of the people who have hurt you, you will end up exactly like them. There aren't any if's or maybe's in what I just said. It's the simple truth, and it can't be changed by different circumstances.

Please don't be angry at me, and listen to what I just said. It's the truth, and I don't want to see you destroy yourself in bitterness.

Forgiveness. HA! you don't know anything about me. forgiviness is something i can live without. i don't care about brandon or anyone. maybe i wanted people to feel sorry for me and all before, but that's over. i've seen the truth and i don't like. i'va had a glimse of what's to come and i detest it. i don't want any part of this. screw this.

No, no one knows anything about you aside from the things you post about yourself. Which isn't a lot aside from 'my life sucks' and 'I need prayer'. The former begs for attention and the latter begs for help. People here have been gracious enough to cater to both pleas.

Don't flame them for doing what you asked.

Anyway, I pray for you too. There's nothing we can say or do to make you feel better about yourself or your situation because you're being hostile toward God -- which makes you hostile toward reason. It's up to Him to change your heart. And I pray He does.

thank you all for praying. but i guess it just isn't enough. i'm not starved for attention or anything. i just wanted some one to talk to, that's all. i am terribly sory for being so mean. i'm really not a vile person. i just can't handle this. not anymore. my grades in school are dropping like flies and i just can;t concentrate. i keep myself busy by watching anime and reading comics. it's all well and good but in the end all i have is my suffering. i do not mean to be pissy and i'm NOT trying to get attention, i only write in order to forget why i am writing. does that make sense? i don't believe it does. oh well. i have more exams tomorrow. charity keeps calling, asking me to get out of the house. why does she keep calling? why did i even get out of bed this morning. i think i will take some sleeping pills and have a nice sleep for once. yes. sleep. sounds lovely. hmmm. so nice. used to hate sleep. now not a day goes by that i'm not wishing for it all day. but instead of going to bed i continue to write. why is that? gawd, i need something for my head. it's starting to hurt. g'night.

I know how u feel with sleep. I have insomnia. Sleep is quite foreign to me.

I'm in a rough bit myself. Assignments are due in soon, but I'm too sick to sit an start doing Java all coded to my colleges high standards :(

Don't worry too much about losing it, we all lash out sometimes when stressed out.

Who's charity? Is she a friend of yours? If she is why don't you just go out with her? You wanted prayer and help, maybe she can. Or at least be some company.

When I feel cack sometimes all I want is a friend to come and call me out and have someone to talk to. But no, all my friends have been scared away by my dad. Won't even phone my house to say 'Hi' anymore in case he answers. HE loves that power he has over people.

Try going out with a friend, might help.

anyway I'll keep praying for you.

And theres a verse... grrr... I cant find it... It says God will never put more on you at one time than you can handle...

the verse you're looking for Bob is 1 Corinthians 10.13. "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

Yes ThankYou..

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written: 'For Your sake we are killed all day long; We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.' Yet in all these things we are more than conqueror through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor princi palities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, no height no depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Rom. 8:35-39

i'm still here.

Thats a good thing

Yep, definitely a good thing ;D

Hi Linz.

Yes. It is definately, definately a very good thing.

Linz, don't give up, God loves you.

Hey Linz. . .how's it goin?? Hope everything is great or atleast better. God Bless

I forgot my password....Its been a long time

Oh my gosh, Linz! It's been forever! You had me so worried! I'm so glad you're back! ;D ;D ;D

me 2... ten lettwers

Please pray for my boifriend John W.W. his grandma just passed away.

wow, hi linz! how are you doing? i hope things are going alright, i have been praying for you a lot these past months...glad to have you back :D

Hey linz I don't know you at all except for what I just read and you must be such a strong person for being able to deal with that situation and not turn your back on God or on this message board because if that happened to me I would not be able to cope I would go crazy looking for answers and even though I don't really know you I am praying for you that God will continue to work in your life and show you the right way to travel and continue to help you with the bits and pieces that still may be troubling you and to join everyone else in saying welcome back and glad to meet you.